Lately I have found myself reliving my pregnancy. Mostly due to TimeHop reminding me everyday what I was doing this time last year. It is so hard to put into words, but pregnancy is a giant blur. When I look back, it feels as though it was an out of body experience. I vaguely remember important things about the pregnancy, but it feels like I watched while I floated above myself. It is the strangest feeling. My pregnancy was overall really good with a few unfortunate obstacles. I had morning sickness for the first 20 weeks and mono and bronchitis for about 3 months during my second trimester. I am incredibly thankful for the gift of pregnancy and having a child, but I in no way enjoyed pregnancy. I was not one of those women just raving about the joy of it. Aside from that I surprisingly didn’t mind being 9 months pregnant in the middle of the Texas heat, because I just spent all day, everyday in the pool. In fact, I think that’s why I was so overdue, because I was just too relaxed, and he was just too comfortable!
I don’t know what has made it seem so foreign to me. I look at my body, and can’t even fathom that it transformed that way, and grew a tiny human. I gratefully only gained 25 lbs, mostly because I was extremely sick for so long I had to force myself to eat, but I made up for that in the 2nd and 3rd trimester with the amount of milk and ice cream I consumed. I think part of the reason it seems so foreign is once I delivered him, it just went away. Suddenly it was just empty, almost as if it never happened. Somehow he ate it all away so fast, that 2 weeks later I was below my pre pregnancy weight. I of course still carried some belly weight (that is still hanging with me 9 months later.) I in no way can take credit for this, completely shocked (and obviously thankful) that it melted away. The fact that it just went away, is really confusing for my brain. I believe that is why I think a stork just left him on my doorstep. One day I was huge and then 2 weeks later it was GONE, and I was holding a baby boy in my arms. I in no way expect my next pregnancy to be like this, but I am incredibly grateful this one was.
My vagina on the other hand, now that’s another story.