How Am I So Lucky

I look back over my life and the choices I have made and I can’t help but think “How am I the one that got lucky?”  I have made some really dumb choices in my past.  Choices that could have altered my life in huge, negative ways.  Somehow, only by the true grace of our Lord, I have not been faced with the same consequences as others I know who made the exact same choices.

I fell in love with a man who had completely different beliefs from me, therefore, I knew it would never work, but I loved him and wanted to be with him. Thankfully, somehow, unbeknownst to me, I got out.  Someone I know and love is still trapped in the exact same relationship.

I chose to love people I knew were not healthy for me to love, but I continued to pursue a relationship with them.  I know someone who might lose his life, his family, and his career for making the same choice.

I had unprotected sex, with someone who slept with ALOT of people, but amazingly, I did not get an STD.  Many others I know weren’t so lucky.

My husband and I had plenty of unprotected sex before marriage, and luckily did not make any babies in the process.  One of my best friends made the same choice, but now has two kids, and no ring on her finger to show for it.

I know its not luck.  I know its grace, but how much grace is one person allowed?  When will mine run out?

2017-08-11T15:37:52+00:00 March 23rd, 2011|family, friends, life changing, loss, Me, secrets|

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Writing has always allowed me to be able to communicate better what I am truly feeling not only with others but mainly with myself. It allows me to look inside my heart, figure things out, and help me be who I really want to be.