The mental game of miscarriage is exhausting. I am 8 weeks pregnant again now, I think. When miscarriage is a possibility for you, every day you wake up wondering whether that baby is still living inside of you. The wait until that first Dr. appointment could not be longer. The wait to get out of [...]
Turns out, I have this crazy talent for feeling when I get pregnant almost as quickly as the moment of conception. I’ve now been pregnant 3 times and two of the three times, I knew two days after conception that I was pregnant. People think I’m crazy when I say “I think I’m pregnant. We [...]
We have been trying to take family pictures since Spring. One thing after another kept happening and it just kept getting pushed back. We have not had a family photo session of just us, since our Engagement Photo's 10 years ago. Because we haven't done them in so long I felt all this pressure for [...]
We have been through a good amount of trials in our 9 years of marriage, but the last 2 have by far, been the toughest. While I was pregnant with my son, my husband opened his own business. He had been running it for awhile and been extremely successful so he decided to pursue his [...]
I haven't been here for a very long time. It's mostly because I haven't even been able to process my own feelings and emotions over the last 9 months. I'm here now, and so is he. My little boy. It feels as though it took us forever to bring him into this world. The last [...]
This post has been in the back of my mind for months now and I just haven't felt it was the right time to write it yet. Today, Mother's Day, finally felt appropriate. 9 months ago, I became pregnant. Jack and I had been talking kids for a while but just weren't ready to take [...]
It seems to be getting easier. Each month brings fewer tears, fewer sleepless nights, but also fewer memories. I find it getting easier, but I wonder if it is supposed to naturally progress that way or is it because I am forcing myself avoid the thoughts. I am thinking about losing Dad less and less. [...]
I find myself forgetting more and more about the past 3 months. I wish so much I would've written through the process. So many things happened that I knew I would want to remember I just couldn't seem to get myself to want to write it. I believed writing it would make it real, and [...]
Four years ago on May 25 my life changed forever when I married my husband. This year on that day my life forever changed again. That day was full of so much joy, laughter and dreams. This day was full of deep mourning and sorrow. On May 25 of 2012 my Daddy was diagnosed with [...]
Over the past year I have seen more than the comfortable amount of marriages fail. I don’t think divorce is really ever an outcome that people are comfortable with, but in my experience with what I have known of marriage and what I was raised with, divorce. doesn’t. happen. but unfortunately it does. A lot. [...]