I've always heard people say they have an "addictive" personality. This was never something I felt applied to me. I discovered recently, I think I was in denial. I do think I have an addictive personality. Over the past 9 months, I have really been working on getting healthy, which means changing lots of bad [...]
I LOVE traveling alone. I find myself when I'm alone. I get in my head space, where it's so quiet that I can finally hear myself screaming. I feel, I process, and I heal. This past weekend I was able to head to the beach...for 1 day. No noise, no social media, no responsibility, just [...]
I have always been a very independent girl, until I got married. I was the girl, on the side of the road, changing her own flat tire. That was something Dad taught me. I never found my identity in anything other than exactly who I was. That slowly began to diminish after I married Jack. [...]
I experience everything from a distance. I find myself never getting in too deep emotionally or feeling my experiences to the fullest. I can honestly say it is not intentional, but that I miss feeling the situation before I even know I stayed distant. My dad always said to me, "Your disappointments are directly proportionate [...]
All throughout college I had an off and on relationship that was heading towards marriage. After 3 years, it ended abruptly, followed by a phone call by his mother, telling me he had been with someone else during our relationship. I began experiencing pain like I had never experienced, and I in no way knew [...]
I am home from my quick trip to NYC and I am not exaggerating when I say I feel like a completely different person. When I was there, H said to me, "This is the happiest I have seen you in a very long time." I am a happy person in general, but I used [...]
As I am sitting on the train, heading out of this city, thinking about every moment I experienced here over the last day and a half. The smile on my face is so untamable it’s embarrassing. This is a trip where I want to remember every moment. I have been dreaming of returning to this [...]
It seems to be getting easier. Each month brings fewer tears, fewer sleepless nights, but also fewer memories. I find it getting easier, but I wonder if it is supposed to naturally progress that way or is it because I am forcing myself avoid the thoughts. I am thinking about losing Dad less and less. [...]
I find myself forgetting more and more about the past 3 months. I wish so much I would've written through the process. So many things happened that I knew I would want to remember I just couldn't seem to get myself to want to write it. I believed writing it would make it real, and [...]
Four years ago on May 25 my life changed forever when I married my husband. This year on that day my life forever changed again. That day was full of so much joy, laughter and dreams. This day was full of deep mourning and sorrow. On May 25 of 2012 my Daddy was diagnosed with [...]