I haven't been here in a while. In bed, forcing myself to turn on the movie Tangled, so I can fall asleep without crying. When this movie first came out in 2010 my sister and her family were here visiting from overseas for the summer. The first time I saw this movie I was able [...]
It seems to be getting easier. Each month brings fewer tears, fewer sleepless nights, but also fewer memories. I find it getting easier, but I wonder if it is supposed to naturally progress that way or is it because I am forcing myself avoid the thoughts. I am thinking about losing Dad less and less. [...]
I find myself forgetting more and more about the past 3 months. I wish so much I would've written through the process. So many things happened that I knew I would want to remember I just couldn't seem to get myself to want to write it. I believed writing it would make it real, and [...]
Four years ago on May 25 my life changed forever when I married my husband. This year on that day my life forever changed again. That day was full of so much joy, laughter and dreams. This day was full of deep mourning and sorrow. On May 25 of 2012 my Daddy was diagnosed with [...]
I have always known that once I love someone, I love them forever. Over the years I have continued to not be able to let those previous relationships in my past go free. It ranges from romantic relationships to friendships but it all hurts the same. People told me as you get older you begin [...]
I thought once I found the man I love and said "I do" I would never have to feel this way again. Lately, I have been finding that to not be true. It's not quite to the extreme of losing him, because I know neither of us are going anywhere, but sometimes it just [...]
Some day she might read this. I doubt she will, but if she ever does I hope maybe she will begin to understand how much I truly loved her, wanted to help her, and how much she hurt me. A couple of years ago I made a great friend. It was the kind of [...]