I was 12 days past due and baby boy had not made his grand appearance yet. I was planning on doing everything in this birth process unmedicated, and as natural as possible. I had been studying my Hypnobabies curriculum for months, mentally preparing myself for this process. I knew it could go opposite as planned, [...]
I haven't been here in a while. In bed, forcing myself to turn on the movie Tangled, so I can fall asleep without crying. When this movie first came out in 2010 my sister and her family were here visiting from overseas for the summer. The first time I saw this movie I was able [...]
This post has been in the back of my mind for months now and I just haven't felt it was the right time to write it yet. Today, Mother's Day, finally felt appropriate. 9 months ago, I became pregnant. Jack and I had been talking kids for a while but just weren't ready to take [...]
I dream. A lot. Almost every night I close my eyes wondering what I will dream of that night. My dreams are almost always relative to what is taking place in my life. I may not always be able to immediately figure out the reason or "meaning" of them, but I can typically decipher them [...]
There are still certain places I go, such as Fry's Electronics, that faithfully choke me every time. Dad was a computer guy. In fact, part of me believes that may be what caused the cancer. For 35 years he sat in his office, 12 hrs a day, completed surrounded by every electronic you could imagine. [...]
It seems to be getting easier. Each month brings fewer tears, fewer sleepless nights, but also fewer memories. I find it getting easier, but I wonder if it is supposed to naturally progress that way or is it because I am forcing myself avoid the thoughts. I am thinking about losing Dad less and less. [...]
After my Dad passed away my mom made the decision to sell her home, and move on to a new beginning. They tell you after a death of a loved one you shouldn't make any major life changing decisions for at least a year after they pass. She chose to begin moving forward as quickly [...]
I find myself forgetting more and more about the past 3 months. I wish so much I would've written through the process. So many things happened that I knew I would want to remember I just couldn't seem to get myself to want to write it. I believed writing it would make it real, and [...]
Four years ago on May 25 my life changed forever when I married my husband. This year on that day my life forever changed again. That day was full of so much joy, laughter and dreams. This day was full of deep mourning and sorrow. On May 25 of 2012 my Daddy was diagnosed with [...]