My baby boy wasn't here and neither was my anesthesiologist. 3 hours later, he came to administer it. I hadn't dilated past 8 cm, despite doing every trick in the book to move it along. Baby boy kept changing positions and it kept him from dropping. I kept getting him in the right position, and [...]
I was 12 days past due and baby boy had not made his grand appearance yet. I was planning on doing everything in this birth process unmedicated, and as natural as possible. I had been studying my Hypnobabies curriculum for months, mentally preparing myself for this process. I knew it could go opposite as planned, [...]
I haven't been here in a while. In bed, forcing myself to turn on the movie Tangled, so I can fall asleep without crying. When this movie first came out in 2010 my sister and her family were here visiting from overseas for the summer. The first time I saw this movie I was able [...]
There are still certain places I go, such as Fry's Electronics, that faithfully choke me every time. Dad was a computer guy. In fact, part of me believes that may be what caused the cancer. For 35 years he sat in his office, 12 hrs a day, completed surrounded by every electronic you could imagine. [...]
Some day she might read this. I doubt she will, but if she ever does I hope maybe she will begin to understand how much I truly loved her, wanted to help her, and how much she hurt me. A couple of years ago I made a great friend. It was the kind of [...]